And I'd bet a hundred Dora she kissed you back, didn't she? It was probably a whole involved thing. A thing she not only allowed to happen, but encouraged and furthered. A thing that she may well think you couldn't say no to, because you couldn't control yourself.
Odds are a sweetheart like her feels responsible for that, even if you were the one who started it. And if that isn't bad enough..... Only knowing half the story like this, she's probably jumping to painful conclusions about what that means about your feelings, too.
And what if I don't know what that means about my feelings? I-
[He doesn't know how he feels exactly, there's definitely a draw there but- Is it the same way he feels about Will? Does it need to be? Should he apologize for that?
It's okay if you don't. My point is, you didn't tell her that your feelings are complicated, did you? You just told her about the wine.
[He doesn't need to ask. Of course Cor didn't admit to his emotions, or any turmoil they were in. He mentioned the wine and probably apologized, and then Honerva fled, and they both went to be confused and upset by themselves.]
Think about what kind of message knowing only that one piece of information sends to someone who's already upset. It says "I'm not the one who wanted to kiss you. The wine wanted to kiss you. I don't want you. I don't have any feelings for you. I was forced into this. I had no control over myself. That's not what's really in my heart."
It might not be logical, or true, but that's probably where her mind immediately jumped to.
Told her I'd thought about kissing her before? [He blushes at that, embarrassed to admit that even with all the intensity of what had been developing between himself and Will at the time he'd been drawn to Honerva in such a way. There was something about her that was... magnetic in so many ways.]
But you're probably right. [A sigh as he leans in to nuzzle against his boy, hiding his face in Will's hair.
[He calls you out because he loves you, Cor. He loves you too much to not be uncomfortably honest about how you probably pierced the heart of a woman you love. After all, how can you repair that kind of damage if you don't know the extent of it?]
Well, that's a start..... Definitely not enough by itself, but you can build on it.
[No teasing about blushing this time, at least; Will just smiles to himself as Cor hides against him, leaning into the older man's chest.]
You'll be okay. Just set the record straight, and you two can figure out how you really feel, together.
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Date: 2020-02-24 06:27 am (UTC)Odds are a sweetheart like her feels responsible for that, even if you were the one who started it. And if that isn't bad enough..... Only knowing half the story like this, she's probably jumping to painful conclusions about what that means about your feelings, too.
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Date: 2020-02-25 03:34 am (UTC)[He doesn't know how he feels exactly, there's definitely a draw there but- Is it the same way he feels about Will? Does it need to be? Should he apologize for that?
It's all such a jumbled mess in his head.]
I don't want her to feel guilty.
[He knows that much at least.]
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Date: 2020-02-25 04:23 am (UTC)[He doesn't need to ask. Of course Cor didn't admit to his emotions, or any turmoil they were in. He mentioned the wine and probably apologized, and then Honerva fled, and they both went to be confused and upset by themselves.]
Think about what kind of message knowing only that one piece of information sends to someone who's already upset. It says "I'm not the one who wanted to kiss you. The wine wanted to kiss you. I don't want you. I don't have any feelings for you. I was forced into this. I had no control over myself. That's not what's really in my heart."
It might not be logical, or true, but that's probably where her mind immediately jumped to.
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Date: 2020-02-27 07:24 pm (UTC)Told her I'd thought about kissing her before? [He blushes at that, embarrassed to admit that even with all the intensity of what had been developing between himself and Will at the time he'd been drawn to Honerva in such a way. There was something about her that was... magnetic in so many ways.]
But you're probably right. [A sigh as he leans in to nuzzle against his boy, hiding his face in Will's hair.
No, you're definitely right. Dammit]
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Date: 2020-02-27 09:02 pm (UTC)Well, that's a start..... Definitely not enough by itself, but you can build on it.
[No teasing about blushing this time, at least; Will just smiles to himself as Cor hides against him, leaning into the older man's chest.]
You'll be okay. Just set the record straight, and you two can figure out how you really feel, together.
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Date: 2020-03-03 12:38 am (UTC)Mmm... when she's comfortable even being around me again.
[Clearly that is the best excuse for how long it's going to take him to talk to her again.]
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Date: 2020-03-03 01:49 am (UTC)[Will smiles wryly as the sigh ruffles his hair.]
If you two can't handle the proximity yet, there's always video calls. Not sure I'd recommend them for something like this, though.
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Date: 2020-03-03 07:11 pm (UTC)Neither... of us are particularly fond of video calls.
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Date: 2020-03-03 07:28 pm (UTC)I figured as much. I guess I'll just cross my fingers for the awkwardness to pass quickly, then.