[Will stays snuggled up against Cor's side, still and quiet, waiting for Cor to try to find the words for..... For a serene moonlit goddess, if that heart-stopping memory was anything to go by. Beautiful, compassionate, wise, powerful, gentle, soothing..... Even just hearing about her, it's hard not to be a little in awe.]
She sounds..... Incredible.
[Incredible, and like someone Cor could badly use in his life, probably even moreso than him. How could he possibly object to that?]
I can't imagine a woman like that would be anything but concerned about you. Even if she doesn't know about the wine yet--you're just not that type. She probably thinks something is wrong.
[Cor isn't an impulsive man, or one that's quick to open his heart. Surely she knows that. How could she be upset with him or think less of him, especially if she knows about the wine?]
You're difficult to read for most people too, aren't you? But if she's as much like you as you say, I bet she's not that hard to figure out.
[Girlfriend time to dissect the emotional meaning behind this encounter? Oh yes~ He knows Cor is rotten at this sort of thing; that's just part of the charm, how sweet and anxious he is. It makes it all the more necessary to help reassure him, so they can unravel the knots he ties himself up in.]
She seemed upset... about the wine. Insisted she should go and we'd talk later.
[She'd closed off, withdrawn from him when he'd mentioned the fact that the wine had pushed him to cross a line he'd have respected for years otherwise.]
[Will's expression softens a little at that. Upset about the wine, huh? How has Cor not figured out what that means yet? If they're really as similar as he's said, maybe all Cor needs is to turn things around again.]
Let's try something. What if, that night with the fireworks, I had said the only reason I'd kissed you back was someone was forcing me to? Maybe--I don't know. Maybe they could have blackmailed me, or threatened to hurt me, or were mind controlling me?
That's not what happened, so don't get any ideas--but how would you feel if it had? What would you think?
[He probably doesn't need to add the warning, but knowing his luck? If he forgot it, Cor would immediately tie himself into knots of self-doubt and worry.]
[It's a good thing Will takes the time to add in that little reassurance if the immediate frown is anything to go by. But then he realizes what Will is trying to imply with that and the frown turns thoughtful, worried.]
I suppose... I'd feel awful for doing something you were not able to say no to.
[He lets out a slow breath, contemplative and not quite looking at Will.]
But I kissed her?
[He's not entirely sure that means anything, given the situation.]
And I'd bet a hundred Dora she kissed you back, didn't she? It was probably a whole involved thing. A thing she not only allowed to happen, but encouraged and furthered. A thing that she may well think you couldn't say no to, because you couldn't control yourself.
Odds are a sweetheart like her feels responsible for that, even if you were the one who started it. And if that isn't bad enough..... Only knowing half the story like this, she's probably jumping to painful conclusions about what that means about your feelings, too.
And what if I don't know what that means about my feelings? I-
[He doesn't know how he feels exactly, there's definitely a draw there but- Is it the same way he feels about Will? Does it need to be? Should he apologize for that?
It's okay if you don't. My point is, you didn't tell her that your feelings are complicated, did you? You just told her about the wine.
[He doesn't need to ask. Of course Cor didn't admit to his emotions, or any turmoil they were in. He mentioned the wine and probably apologized, and then Honerva fled, and they both went to be confused and upset by themselves.]
Think about what kind of message knowing only that one piece of information sends to someone who's already upset. It says "I'm not the one who wanted to kiss you. The wine wanted to kiss you. I don't want you. I don't have any feelings for you. I was forced into this. I had no control over myself. That's not what's really in my heart."
It might not be logical, or true, but that's probably where her mind immediately jumped to.
Told her I'd thought about kissing her before? [He blushes at that, embarrassed to admit that even with all the intensity of what had been developing between himself and Will at the time he'd been drawn to Honerva in such a way. There was something about her that was... magnetic in so many ways.]
But you're probably right. [A sigh as he leans in to nuzzle against his boy, hiding his face in Will's hair.
[He calls you out because he loves you, Cor. He loves you too much to not be uncomfortably honest about how you probably pierced the heart of a woman you love. After all, how can you repair that kind of damage if you don't know the extent of it?]
Well, that's a start..... Definitely not enough by itself, but you can build on it.
[No teasing about blushing this time, at least; Will just smiles to himself as Cor hides against him, leaning into the older man's chest.]
You'll be okay. Just set the record straight, and you two can figure out how you really feel, together.
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Date: 2020-02-09 02:27 am (UTC)She sounds..... Incredible.
[Incredible, and like someone Cor could badly use in his life, probably even moreso than him. How could he possibly object to that?]
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Date: 2020-02-09 06:33 pm (UTC)[The speed with which he responds to that speaks volumes to how much he cares for her.]
I only hope I haven't gone and ruined he opinion of me.
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Date: 2020-02-09 07:02 pm (UTC)[Cor isn't an impulsive man, or one that's quick to open his heart. Surely she knows that. How could she be upset with him or think less of him, especially if she knows about the wine?]
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Date: 2020-02-09 07:09 pm (UTC)[Will you know he's no good at logic when it comes to relationships or people's perceptions of him.]
I'm worried that might have... hurt her. She's very difficult to read.
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Date: 2020-02-09 07:49 pm (UTC)[Girlfriend time to dissect the emotional meaning behind this encounter? Oh yes~ He knows Cor is rotten at this sort of thing; that's just part of the charm, how sweet and anxious he is. It makes it all the more necessary to help reassure him, so they can unravel the knots he ties himself up in.]
How did it go? What did she say?
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Date: 2020-02-23 08:03 pm (UTC)[She'd closed off, withdrawn from him when he'd mentioned the fact that the wine had pushed him to cross a line he'd have respected for years otherwise.]
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Date: 2020-02-24 01:42 am (UTC)[Will's expression softens a little at that. Upset about the wine, huh? How has Cor not figured out what that means yet? If they're really as similar as he's said, maybe all Cor needs is to turn things around again.]
Let's try something. What if, that night with the fireworks, I had said the only reason I'd kissed you back was someone was forcing me to? Maybe--I don't know. Maybe they could have blackmailed me, or threatened to hurt me, or were mind controlling me?
That's not what happened, so don't get any ideas--but how would you feel if it had? What would you think?
[He probably doesn't need to add the warning, but knowing his luck? If he forgot it, Cor would immediately tie himself into knots of self-doubt and worry.]
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Date: 2020-02-24 05:59 am (UTC)I suppose... I'd feel awful for doing something you were not able to say no to.
[He lets out a slow breath, contemplative and not quite looking at Will.]
But I kissed her?
[He's not entirely sure that means anything, given the situation.]
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Date: 2020-02-24 06:27 am (UTC)Odds are a sweetheart like her feels responsible for that, even if you were the one who started it. And if that isn't bad enough..... Only knowing half the story like this, she's probably jumping to painful conclusions about what that means about your feelings, too.
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Date: 2020-02-25 03:34 am (UTC)[He doesn't know how he feels exactly, there's definitely a draw there but- Is it the same way he feels about Will? Does it need to be? Should he apologize for that?
It's all such a jumbled mess in his head.]
I don't want her to feel guilty.
[He knows that much at least.]
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Date: 2020-02-25 04:23 am (UTC)[He doesn't need to ask. Of course Cor didn't admit to his emotions, or any turmoil they were in. He mentioned the wine and probably apologized, and then Honerva fled, and they both went to be confused and upset by themselves.]
Think about what kind of message knowing only that one piece of information sends to someone who's already upset. It says "I'm not the one who wanted to kiss you. The wine wanted to kiss you. I don't want you. I don't have any feelings for you. I was forced into this. I had no control over myself. That's not what's really in my heart."
It might not be logical, or true, but that's probably where her mind immediately jumped to.
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Date: 2020-02-27 07:24 pm (UTC)Told her I'd thought about kissing her before? [He blushes at that, embarrassed to admit that even with all the intensity of what had been developing between himself and Will at the time he'd been drawn to Honerva in such a way. There was something about her that was... magnetic in so many ways.]
But you're probably right. [A sigh as he leans in to nuzzle against his boy, hiding his face in Will's hair.
No, you're definitely right. Dammit]
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Date: 2020-02-27 09:02 pm (UTC)Well, that's a start..... Definitely not enough by itself, but you can build on it.
[No teasing about blushing this time, at least; Will just smiles to himself as Cor hides against him, leaning into the older man's chest.]
You'll be okay. Just set the record straight, and you two can figure out how you really feel, together.
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Date: 2020-03-03 12:38 am (UTC)Mmm... when she's comfortable even being around me again.
[Clearly that is the best excuse for how long it's going to take him to talk to her again.]
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Date: 2020-03-03 01:49 am (UTC)[Will smiles wryly as the sigh ruffles his hair.]
If you two can't handle the proximity yet, there's always video calls. Not sure I'd recommend them for something like this, though.
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Date: 2020-03-03 07:11 pm (UTC)Neither... of us are particularly fond of video calls.
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Date: 2020-03-03 07:28 pm (UTC)I figured as much. I guess I'll just cross my fingers for the awkwardness to pass quickly, then.