I'm hearing far too much apologizing, and not nearly enough eating.
[Will clicks his tongue at that, lightly chiding. Does he need to scoot into Cor's lap and feed him? Because he absolutely will, if flustering him enough to take his mind off the self-reproach seems like a viable strategy.]
[Cor huffs a sigh, rolling his eyes at the fussing but he does obediently lift the chopsticks, scooping a bit of natto and... well whatever the hell this veg option is. Chopped and with the still questionable options in the fabricator it's hard to say for sure. Once his bowl is filled as he likes he leans into Will a little more, cradling the bowl close instead of eating off the tray itself.]
Mmmm but I don't want to inconvenience you. Especially not for- [Excuse him while he blushes and trails off in favor of stuffing rice in his face.]
It's not something you can just resist through sheer strength of will. If she was able to hold off for so long, that's probably why you thought you could manage.
[Because that's what Cor does, isn't it? He denies himself. He maintains strinct discipline. He endures, no matter how difficult or distressing the situation is. If it were as simple as implanting a foreign desire in someone's head, Will doesn't doubt Cor would have come out the victor. But that's not what the wine feels like at all, is it?
He knows better. And he knows that when exerted on a man like Cor, that kind of influence has the potential to be absolutely devastating.]
[He frowns at that, not liking the... well the predictable truth of it. Yes, he'd overestimated himself and failed and potentially cause a whole mess because of it. That alone is enough to have him looking guilty but the question of who, and more the memory that comes with it, has his face flushing as well. Either way he absolutely cannot meet Will's gaze, focusing on his rice instead.
Mulling it over to try to figure out how to word it really doesn't help at all either and he knows, even as he does it that Will is going to have no problems picking up on the breathless moment he'd seen Honerva under the moonlight and gone to her. The fear and worry the knowledge of her downright suicidal expedition had caused, the way it had all melted away when he'd finally given in and kissed her.]
[He'd expected a name, some guilt, some embarrassment--but he most certainly hadn't expected this. It's only a flash of a memory, a few instants at most..... even so, his heart is pounding with the sudden rush of emotions. That..... that's not the wine. Not entirely, at least.
If anything, all the wine had done was open the floodgates, right? Kept Cor from sitting on this for years? That's..... good, isn't it? Of course it is. It must be. Anyone Cor would feel that way about.....
He doesn't..... really know how to feel about this. Or about her, for that matter. Obviously, that needs to change. Will leans his cheek against Cor's shoulder, glancing up at him even if Cor is very studiously focused on breakfast.]
[It's easier not to feel guilty when he doesn't actually... meet his gaze. It doesn't mean he cares any less for Will it's just easier not to get overwhelmed. Especially when he asks about her and Cor is quiet for so very long, trying to find words to explain what she's like that doesn't sound like something from one of Gladiolus' romance novels.]
She's a lot like myself, really. Wiser than I could ever hope to be but generous and caring.
[The idea that she can recognize so much of what he wants or needs when he doesn't know himself. The faintest smiles when he thanks her for sharing her experiences with him. The way she calls him out and holds him accountable to things he hadn't even known he was improving.]
She has a great deal of powerful magic but she... is also a pillar of quiet peace. [So often a balm to his nerves when they are at their most frayed.
It's not something he can bring himself to say but the sentiment is there nonetheless.]
[Will stays snuggled up against Cor's side, still and quiet, waiting for Cor to try to find the words for..... For a serene moonlit goddess, if that heart-stopping memory was anything to go by. Beautiful, compassionate, wise, powerful, gentle, soothing..... Even just hearing about her, it's hard not to be a little in awe.]
She sounds..... Incredible.
[Incredible, and like someone Cor could badly use in his life, probably even moreso than him. How could he possibly object to that?]
I can't imagine a woman like that would be anything but concerned about you. Even if she doesn't know about the wine yet--you're just not that type. She probably thinks something is wrong.
[Cor isn't an impulsive man, or one that's quick to open his heart. Surely she knows that. How could she be upset with him or think less of him, especially if she knows about the wine?]
You're difficult to read for most people too, aren't you? But if she's as much like you as you say, I bet she's not that hard to figure out.
[Girlfriend time to dissect the emotional meaning behind this encounter? Oh yes~ He knows Cor is rotten at this sort of thing; that's just part of the charm, how sweet and anxious he is. It makes it all the more necessary to help reassure him, so they can unravel the knots he ties himself up in.]
She seemed upset... about the wine. Insisted she should go and we'd talk later.
[She'd closed off, withdrawn from him when he'd mentioned the fact that the wine had pushed him to cross a line he'd have respected for years otherwise.]
[Will's expression softens a little at that. Upset about the wine, huh? How has Cor not figured out what that means yet? If they're really as similar as he's said, maybe all Cor needs is to turn things around again.]
Let's try something. What if, that night with the fireworks, I had said the only reason I'd kissed you back was someone was forcing me to? Maybe--I don't know. Maybe they could have blackmailed me, or threatened to hurt me, or were mind controlling me?
That's not what happened, so don't get any ideas--but how would you feel if it had? What would you think?
[He probably doesn't need to add the warning, but knowing his luck? If he forgot it, Cor would immediately tie himself into knots of self-doubt and worry.]
[It's a good thing Will takes the time to add in that little reassurance if the immediate frown is anything to go by. But then he realizes what Will is trying to imply with that and the frown turns thoughtful, worried.]
I suppose... I'd feel awful for doing something you were not able to say no to.
[He lets out a slow breath, contemplative and not quite looking at Will.]
But I kissed her?
[He's not entirely sure that means anything, given the situation.]
And I'd bet a hundred Dora she kissed you back, didn't she? It was probably a whole involved thing. A thing she not only allowed to happen, but encouraged and furthered. A thing that she may well think you couldn't say no to, because you couldn't control yourself.
Odds are a sweetheart like her feels responsible for that, even if you were the one who started it. And if that isn't bad enough..... Only knowing half the story like this, she's probably jumping to painful conclusions about what that means about your feelings, too.
And what if I don't know what that means about my feelings? I-
[He doesn't know how he feels exactly, there's definitely a draw there but- Is it the same way he feels about Will? Does it need to be? Should he apologize for that?
It's okay if you don't. My point is, you didn't tell her that your feelings are complicated, did you? You just told her about the wine.
[He doesn't need to ask. Of course Cor didn't admit to his emotions, or any turmoil they were in. He mentioned the wine and probably apologized, and then Honerva fled, and they both went to be confused and upset by themselves.]
Think about what kind of message knowing only that one piece of information sends to someone who's already upset. It says "I'm not the one who wanted to kiss you. The wine wanted to kiss you. I don't want you. I don't have any feelings for you. I was forced into this. I had no control over myself. That's not what's really in my heart."
It might not be logical, or true, but that's probably where her mind immediately jumped to.
Told her I'd thought about kissing her before? [He blushes at that, embarrassed to admit that even with all the intensity of what had been developing between himself and Will at the time he'd been drawn to Honerva in such a way. There was something about her that was... magnetic in so many ways.]
But you're probably right. [A sigh as he leans in to nuzzle against his boy, hiding his face in Will's hair.
[He calls you out because he loves you, Cor. He loves you too much to not be uncomfortably honest about how you probably pierced the heart of a woman you love. After all, how can you repair that kind of damage if you don't know the extent of it?]
Well, that's a start..... Definitely not enough by itself, but you can build on it.
[No teasing about blushing this time, at least; Will just smiles to himself as Cor hides against him, leaning into the older man's chest.]
You'll be okay. Just set the record straight, and you two can figure out how you really feel, together.
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Date: 2020-01-20 10:10 am (UTC)[Will clicks his tongue at that, lightly chiding. Does he need to scoot into Cor's lap and feed him? Because he absolutely will, if flustering him enough to take his mind off the self-reproach seems like a viable strategy.]
You know I'm yours whenever you want me, right?
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Date: 2020-01-21 05:15 am (UTC)[Cor huffs a sigh, rolling his eyes at the fussing but he does obediently lift the chopsticks, scooping a bit of natto and... well whatever the hell this veg option is. Chopped and with the still questionable options in the fabricator it's hard to say for sure. Once his bowl is filled as he likes he leans into Will a little more, cradling the bowl close instead of eating off the tray itself.]
Mmmm but I don't want to inconvenience you. Especially not for- [Excuse him while he blushes and trails off in favor of stuffing rice in his face.]
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Date: 2020-01-21 06:11 am (UTC)[Will just grins smugly at Cor, leaning over to kiss his nose. Just try and deny that you love it, he dares you.]
And that as though it's a hardship to come spend the night.
[Don't make him gush over you to counter this inconvenience nonsense. You think he's bluffing? Just try him!]
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Date: 2020-01-21 09:43 am (UTC)Calling you in the middle of the night because I've gone and made a fool of myself is not how I planned for that to go though.
[Hush. While they're being cute, though, here Will, let him feed you some of his rice.]
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Date: 2020-01-21 10:05 am (UTC)[Look at how proud of himself he is, he earned that laugh~ And that rice, too; he will gladly accept a bit of cute romantic feeding.]
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Date: 2020-01-21 10:11 am (UTC)Cor follows that bit of rice to press a light kiss to Will's lips before leaning back to dig into breakfast properly.]
I'm afraid I both overestimated myself and underestimated the wine.
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Date: 2020-01-21 10:27 am (UTC)How could you have known? Seeing something from a distance or hearing about it isn't remotely the same thing as experiencing it firsthand.
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Date: 2020-01-21 10:32 am (UTC)It dropped Lup to her knees, trying to resist it. I knew better and yet.....
[He sighs, shaking his head and chewing a little slower through the next bite as he decides on the words.]
Regis isn't the only one I kissed last night.
[May as well get straight to the point.]
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Date: 2020-01-21 06:59 pm (UTC)[Because that's what Cor does, isn't it? He denies himself. He maintains strinct discipline. He endures, no matter how difficult or distressing the situation is. If it were as simple as implanting a foreign desire in someone's head, Will doesn't doubt Cor would have come out the victor. But that's not what the wine feels like at all, is it?
He knows better. And he knows that when exerted on a man like Cor, that kind of influence has the potential to be absolutely devastating.]
Who else, then?
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Date: 2020-01-22 02:58 am (UTC)Mulling it over to try to figure out how to word it really doesn't help at all either and he knows, even as he does it that Will is going to have no problems picking up on the breathless moment he'd seen Honerva under the moonlight and gone to her. The fear and worry the knowledge of her downright suicidal expedition had caused, the way it had all melted away when he'd finally given in and kissed her.]
Um... Honerva...?
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Date: 2020-01-22 09:47 am (UTC)[He'd expected a name, some guilt, some embarrassment--but he most certainly hadn't expected this. It's only a flash of a memory, a few instants at most..... even so, his heart is pounding with the sudden rush of emotions. That..... that's not the wine. Not entirely, at least.
If anything, all the wine had done was open the floodgates, right? Kept Cor from sitting on this for years? That's..... good, isn't it? Of course it is. It must be. Anyone Cor would feel that way about.....
He doesn't..... really know how to feel about this. Or about her, for that matter. Obviously, that needs to change. Will leans his cheek against Cor's shoulder, glancing up at him even if Cor is very studiously focused on breakfast.]
I don't really know Honerva. What's she like?
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Date: 2020-02-08 08:53 pm (UTC)She's a lot like myself, really. Wiser than I could ever hope to be but generous and caring.
[The idea that she can recognize so much of what he wants or needs when he doesn't know himself. The faintest smiles when he thanks her for sharing her experiences with him. The way she calls him out and holds him accountable to things he hadn't even known he was improving.]
She has a great deal of powerful magic but she... is also a pillar of quiet peace. [So often a balm to his nerves when they are at their most frayed.
It's not something he can bring himself to say but the sentiment is there nonetheless.]
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Date: 2020-02-09 02:27 am (UTC)She sounds..... Incredible.
[Incredible, and like someone Cor could badly use in his life, probably even moreso than him. How could he possibly object to that?]
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Date: 2020-02-09 06:33 pm (UTC)[The speed with which he responds to that speaks volumes to how much he cares for her.]
I only hope I haven't gone and ruined he opinion of me.
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Date: 2020-02-09 07:02 pm (UTC)[Cor isn't an impulsive man, or one that's quick to open his heart. Surely she knows that. How could she be upset with him or think less of him, especially if she knows about the wine?]
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Date: 2020-02-09 07:09 pm (UTC)[Will you know he's no good at logic when it comes to relationships or people's perceptions of him.]
I'm worried that might have... hurt her. She's very difficult to read.
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Date: 2020-02-09 07:49 pm (UTC)[Girlfriend time to dissect the emotional meaning behind this encounter? Oh yes~ He knows Cor is rotten at this sort of thing; that's just part of the charm, how sweet and anxious he is. It makes it all the more necessary to help reassure him, so they can unravel the knots he ties himself up in.]
How did it go? What did she say?
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Date: 2020-02-23 08:03 pm (UTC)[She'd closed off, withdrawn from him when he'd mentioned the fact that the wine had pushed him to cross a line he'd have respected for years otherwise.]
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Date: 2020-02-24 01:42 am (UTC)[Will's expression softens a little at that. Upset about the wine, huh? How has Cor not figured out what that means yet? If they're really as similar as he's said, maybe all Cor needs is to turn things around again.]
Let's try something. What if, that night with the fireworks, I had said the only reason I'd kissed you back was someone was forcing me to? Maybe--I don't know. Maybe they could have blackmailed me, or threatened to hurt me, or were mind controlling me?
That's not what happened, so don't get any ideas--but how would you feel if it had? What would you think?
[He probably doesn't need to add the warning, but knowing his luck? If he forgot it, Cor would immediately tie himself into knots of self-doubt and worry.]
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Date: 2020-02-24 05:59 am (UTC)I suppose... I'd feel awful for doing something you were not able to say no to.
[He lets out a slow breath, contemplative and not quite looking at Will.]
But I kissed her?
[He's not entirely sure that means anything, given the situation.]
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Date: 2020-02-24 06:27 am (UTC)Odds are a sweetheart like her feels responsible for that, even if you were the one who started it. And if that isn't bad enough..... Only knowing half the story like this, she's probably jumping to painful conclusions about what that means about your feelings, too.
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Date: 2020-02-25 03:34 am (UTC)[He doesn't know how he feels exactly, there's definitely a draw there but- Is it the same way he feels about Will? Does it need to be? Should he apologize for that?
It's all such a jumbled mess in his head.]
I don't want her to feel guilty.
[He knows that much at least.]
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Date: 2020-02-25 04:23 am (UTC)[He doesn't need to ask. Of course Cor didn't admit to his emotions, or any turmoil they were in. He mentioned the wine and probably apologized, and then Honerva fled, and they both went to be confused and upset by themselves.]
Think about what kind of message knowing only that one piece of information sends to someone who's already upset. It says "I'm not the one who wanted to kiss you. The wine wanted to kiss you. I don't want you. I don't have any feelings for you. I was forced into this. I had no control over myself. That's not what's really in my heart."
It might not be logical, or true, but that's probably where her mind immediately jumped to.
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Date: 2020-02-27 07:24 pm (UTC)Told her I'd thought about kissing her before? [He blushes at that, embarrassed to admit that even with all the intensity of what had been developing between himself and Will at the time he'd been drawn to Honerva in such a way. There was something about her that was... magnetic in so many ways.]
But you're probably right. [A sigh as he leans in to nuzzle against his boy, hiding his face in Will's hair.
No, you're definitely right. Dammit]
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Date: 2020-02-27 09:02 pm (UTC)Well, that's a start..... Definitely not enough by itself, but you can build on it.
[No teasing about blushing this time, at least; Will just smiles to himself as Cor hides against him, leaning into the older man's chest.]
You'll be okay. Just set the record straight, and you two can figure out how you really feel, together.
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